Silent Confession

        “No, nothing…”

        Xin Yi shook his head in a hurry, and did his best to hold back his tears. 

        He just thought about the divorce agreement again. 

        It was another long while during which no one spoke, Xin Yi was gripping on his clothes, holding back his sadness, but heard him say in the next second.

        “…not angry at you.”

        The man’s voice had an astringent tone to it and paused his footsteps. 

        He seriously tried to elaborate.

        But Xin Yi almost could not hold back, randomly nodding, but no matter how he couldn’t persevere. 

        “I know…it’s just…it’s just..how can you be so good…”

        Making Xin Yi like him so much, but also knowing that he was about to throw away Xin Yi. 

        Zhou MuHui was silent, only carrying him and walking forward, the wind carried away the choked-up emotions that Xin Yi hid in his heart, Zhou MuHui didn’t get it, but sensitively could sense that he was in low spirits. 

         “A newbie, that a colleague is in charge of, got into a bit of trouble, we kept dealing with it.” 

        Zhou MuHui said, “I didn’t intend to come back so late.”

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        Zhou MuHui was very stupid, and couldn’t only slowly mention things that could’ve made Xin Yi sad. 

        “I know… I saw the news.”

        “Qi Fang changed route at the last moment, they did not stop him.” Zhou MuHui lifted him a bit, said in a low voice, “He got bumped into by the fans, I was just about to walk toward the back when I got called up.”

        So he could only send a text to Xin Yi, telling him to go home first.

        Xin Yi knew that he certainly got held up by something, that’s why he didn’t come to find him, he leaned on Zhou MuHui’s back, asked, “Then is he ok?”

        “A few bruises.”

        Zhou MuHui paused for a little, then talked again, “I didn’t find you when I got home, I circled around.” 

        That’s why he came so late.

        The text he sent didn’t get a reply after half a day, only after he got free that he noticed Xin Yi disappeared, Zhou MuHui’s heart missed half a beat, held his phone and rushed outside.

        “I know… I know…”

        Xin Yi almost couldn’t hold up his tears, he tightly held onto Zhou MuHui, his cheeks nestled into the back of the other party’s neck, his voice was very light, “You won’t abandon me, you will come back to find me.”

        So…so, why do you want to divorce me.

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        It was already late at night when they returned home, Xin Yi’s school was very far, it takes almost two hours to get to the city center, he woke up with a startle once again when Zhou MuHui put him down, he confusedly hugged Zhou MuHui, “I’ll accompany you.”

        Zhou MuHui got delayed by things, a four or five days business trip got extended to more than a month, the things he took back haven’t been tidied up. 

        He rubbed his eyes, got up from the bed, he pulled Zhou MuHui to tidy it together.

“If you are tired just go to sleep.”

        Zhou MuHui saw him let out a yawn, frowned.

        Xin Yi shook his head, leaned on his arm, touched the scar on his face, said in a small voice, “not tired.” 

        The scar on the man’s face was long and narrow, it was a wound left when he was young, people who knew about him were afraid of him, people who didn’t know about it used this scar to exclude him, just like Qi Fang did in the morning, making up things as he would randomly hit people. 

        Xin Yi didn’t like it when people talked nonsense, because Zhou MuHui was obviously very good, but Zhou MuHui didn’t care about it, even if sometimes people point and criticize him in his face, he could also turn a blind eye. 

        “Do you have class tomorrow?”

        Zhou MuHui asked him, pausing his hand movement. 

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        Xin Yi nodded, followed the posture of it, it fell on his knees(*), he then held his fingers, playing with them.

        Zhou MuHui saw the little remnants of things left in his eyes, the hand that was held moved, gently got out of the hold. 

        “Sleep first.”

        He carried Xin Yi up, not caring about these things anymore, “we’ll do that tomorrow.”

        Xin Yi was stunned, suddenly asked, “We’ll do that together tomorrow?”

        Zhou MuHui lowered his head to look at him, his eyes gradually carried a smile, he then put Xin Yi who looked at him with embarrassment on the bed, “we’ll do that together.”

        Xin Yi couldn’t hold his smile, Zhou MuHui wrapped him in the quilt, brushed aside the hair on disarray on his face, told him, “Don’t come to this kind of event in the future, it’s not safe.” 

        The crazy actions of the fans during the daytime were still fresh in his mind, Zhou MuHui was only rejoicing that at that time Xin Yi already left, otherwise, in a crowd surge, he would really be worried.

        Half of Xin Yi’s face was buried into the quilt, nodding, obediently saying alright.

        He did not dare to say that actually, he had already gone a lot of times, when the man was awfully busy, Xin Yi could only do that in order to not disturb him, but sneakily get to see him. 

        “Chasing stars1 is also not ok, if you like someone, just tell me.”

        The man added.

        Xin Yi is ten years younger than him, he knows that kids at that age all like to chase stars, Xin Yi wasn’t an exception.

        Last time, he found at home some handheld concert props of some star.

        But Xin Yi made his way out of the quilt, blinked, and looked at Zhou MuHui, spoke in a small voice.

        His voice was really small, Zhou MuHui didn’t hear it clearly, asked, “what?”

        “……”

        “I don’t chase stars…”

        Xin Yi was embarrassed by his gaze and captured Zhou MuHui’s hand to cover his own face as if he was telling a secret.

        “I chase my husband…” 

Notes:

(*) I read that sentence many times before understanding it: ZMH’s hand stopped, he must have dropped his hand along his body (meaning it was near his tight/knee) and Xin Yi just followed the movement of his hand before catching his fingers.

Chase a star (追星 zhui xing) is not literally chasing after celebrities, it imply that one is their fans, and follow all sort of their activities (concert, fan meet ups, etc).
In a blunt way, it’s being a groupie.