I Am More Paranoid Than The Villainess

br>But the knock on the door continued.

Lin Shu sneered and turned around, her slippers lightly slapping the floor.
She opened the door to look at the person outside, asked angrily, “What do you want?”

Shen Man smiled and crossed her arms, leaning a shoulder against the door frame.
She replied, “Are you still angry?”
“Who’s angry?” Lin Shu said unhappily.

“That’s great then, you’re not angry” Shen Man massaged her brow and paused, asking, “Why did you blow up after seeing me drinking milk tea with another girl?”
“I…” Lin Shu choked.
Then her face suddenly cooled down, and she angrily answered, “I just couldn’t watch as you trick other girls.
Don’t forget that you like women.

Shen Man’s expression froze and her eyes grew dark.
The playful smile on her face gave off a dangerous feeling, “I think you have a misunderstanding about lesbians.
Even if I do like women, I don’t like every woman I see.”
Lin Shu’s heart trembled, and against the face of her silent oppression, she refused to bow her head, “I don’t care whether you like them or not.”

Shen Man laughed, and turned around to leave.
Lin Shu could feel the rage radiating from her the back of her figure.

*
Shen Man went to the living room and found a can of beer in the fridge.
Aunt He had left it behind after cooking.

Shen Man took out the beer and with a bang, she shut the fridge door hard.
Aunt He heard the ruckus and came out of her room.
When she saw Shen Man, she asked with a smile, “Manman, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing, my hand just slipped.” Shen Man answered, smiling back, but it didn’t didn’t reach her eyes.
Aunt He inexplicably shuddered and didn’t dare to say any more.

Compared with Lin Shu’s domineering ferocity, Shen Man’s unknown attitude and the coldness radiating from her bones is even more frightening.

When Shen Man returned to her room with the beer in hand, the smile on her face suddenly disappeared.
Her eyes also completely cooled down.

Shen Man held the can in her left hand and stretched out the thumb of her right hand through the pull ring to peel open the can.
She yanked hard and with a ‘pop‘, the pull ring peeled open.
The razor edge of pull ring had cut her finger in the process, but Shen Man just carelessly tossed the metal away.

A few drops of beer from the green can had also splashed on her frozen face.
The cold temperature of the beer penetrated her heart along the pores of her skin.

Shen Man raised her face and dumped the contents on herself
That can of beer was reduced to a half, with the other half trailing down into her collar along her slender neck, and soaking her shirt.

Shen Man was oblivious to this, and had only endless anger bursting out of her cold eyes.
She clenched her left hand, and the loud ‘crackle‘ resounded in her ear.
The cylindrical beer can is now like a flattened balloon, crushed into a twisted shape.

“She’s a monster who likes girls.
She’s usually gentle before, I really didn’t expect to be so repulsive.”
“I know right! She’s so disgusting…”
“It’s better if she just died, so others won’t become like her.”
“Don’t get tricked by Manman, she’s a psychopath.”

Those strange words she didn’t understand as a child echoed harshly in her ears.
Those people’s disgusted and mocking eyes were as venomous as snakes.

Shen Man didn’t understand why the usually amiable uncles and aunts showed that terrible expression, mocking the dead with all kinds of unbearable words.
Later, she finally understood and suffered the same treatment.

“Shen Man, you are so disgusting.
Stay away from me!”
“Hey, the monster who likes her own gender, go a mental doctor and don’t infect us.”
“Everyone, don’t play with her or else you’ll catch a strange disease.”

These fifteen, sixteen year old kids naively and cruelly repeated what they had learned from the adults.

Shen Man’s heart completely cooled down at that moment.

She will never forget that freezing cold feeling in every pore of her body, like falling into an icy cave.
She has not returned to that disappointing town since high school.

Shen Man closed her eyes and fell back on the bed.
The can of beer rolled to the ground and made a ‘clang‘ sound.
It was not until it rolled over to the corner of a table that it finally stopped.

The deep night engulfed the last glimmer of light.
Her room was pitch black.
Nothing could be seen, and nothing could be heard.

Shen Man laid down for a long time, enough that her beer soaked clothes were already dry.
She sat up and groped for the light switch

Instantly, the room brightened again.
Shen Man squinted and raised her hand to shield her eyes from the sudden brightness.

Then, someone knocked on her door.
Over, and over again.
It was unbearable.

Shen Man dropped her hand and hooked her lips in a cynical smile.
She walked over to open the door, asking, “Shushu, what’s the problem?”
“I…” Lin Shu paused, her eyebrows jumping.
Arrogantly, she said, “What, I can’t come to you unless there’s a problem?”
Shen Man just smiled and didn’t answer.

Lin Shu’s smiling face then turned red.
Looking both angry and shy, she loudly stated, “Tomorrow after class I want to play badminton.
Are you going or not?”
“How can I refuse the eldest miss’s invitation?” Shen Man replied in a lowered voice, her eyes hiding a smile.

Lin Shu humphed and was as arrogant as ever, “You’ve already agreed.
Don’t go back on your word.”
“Okay,” Shen Man laughed.
Lin Shu turned around and left.

The lights in her room and the lights in the hallways fused, painting everything in a warm glow.

Shen Man stood under the bright lights.
Looking at that slim figure, all her anger and gloominess were locked deep in her heart again.
She smiled and gently closed the door.