Housekeeper of the Hundred Blossom Palace

Silence reigned for a while, but Ming suddenly came to his senses.

“No, if you put it that way, then it sounds like Hui abandoned her child? She was definitely not a cruel woman…”

Ming was trying to gloss over it so that they wouldn’t think her mother was bad, but he couldn’t properly say it.

Yui Mei sent a gaze that was more exasperated than it was cold towards Ming.

Ming’s grief was directed towards her mother — Hui, and the child she gave birth to was thoroughly left out.

Then, did he think that Hui was just a woman he loved, and that she was not Hui the mother?

‘Really, are all of them a bunch of lovesick fools!?’

“Love is everything, love is life” — such a love story was good enough for reading for amusement.

Both Ming and her mother lived in that tale of love.

However, it was difficult for two people to spend the rest of their life together just by being head over heels in love.
Yui Mei, who had died in peace in her previous life, knew this fact very well.

She thought that Ming and her mother were both pitiful people who didn’t see the reality because they chose to wallow in their grief.

“If that woman chose to live then she could have enjoyed a life full of love with her adorable child, so it’s better for her to regret it in the afterlife! Otherwise, it’s disrespectful to all those people who are trying their best to live!”

Ming wanted to say something when he heard those words that came from the bottom of her heart, but he kept his mouth shut in the end.

‘If that’s not the case, it would be too unfair for the ‘Yui Mei’ within me.’

‘Yui Mei’ met the emperor, who was her father, because both of them were still alive.

However, she would never meet her mother again for eternity, because she had already passed away.

It was the same for her mother, who lost the chance to watch her own child grow forever.

What is the real worth of the happiness that she herself chose to give up?

In this world, both happiness and misery exist in balance

In order to possess them equally, one must live their life to the fullest up to the second that they had.

Only those who did so would be able to understand what real happiness was.

However, her mother didn’t choose that path, and instead arbitrarily decided that her happiness was already over.

She didn’t have any pursuers probably because they knew what kind of personality she had.

If they really wanted to kill her, she would never reach the borderland alive.

They would murder her right after she left the capital, even before she met Ming. 

Yui Mei couldn’t help but compare her to the emperor.

They had only met for a handful of times, but she never heard the name “Hui” from that esteemed person’s mouth.

Even if Yui Mei hid her hair, the emperor had already considered her existence as ‘Yui Mei’ right from the start. 

This emperor already had a few children, but he never forgot his child that went to the borderland faraway. 

‘Yup, I’m starting to think that Dad’s a better person now.’

Yui Mei’s opinion of the emperor had improved a little.

Ming, on the other hand, was crushed after Yui Mei talked him down.

“Ahh, you really aren’t Hui.
Hui will never say such things.
She’s just weak and gentle, that’s why I had to protect her…”

From Ming words, which sounded like he’s lamenting and grumbling at the same time, Yui Mei deduced that he was the type to pamper people.

Her mother had a spoiled nature, so that’s why they were probably a good fit.

“I didn’t give Hui a reason to live.
What an incompetent man I am…”

Ming shoulders drooped after saying those words.

Because of their protector and ward relationship, her mother didn’t manage to gain the strength to stand on her own, even during their harsh trip to the borderland.

‘Still, she’s supposed to be a court lady before, so she must have known a thing or two about hardship, right.’

Perhaps, it would only take a moment for a person to indulge in a comfortable life.

Ming had been wavering for ages, so Yui Mei replied frankly.

“Oh my, isn’t it good that you understand how incompetent you are? People are like that, they fall in the face of most challenges.
Once you acknowledge that, it will be the beginning of your new life…was what a traveler that I met long ago said.”

“Incompetent… I see, yes, I’m an incompetent guy from the start…”

Ming was depressed even more after he heard what Yui Mei said.

Perhaps, he was expecting that she would comfort him with something like “No, that’s not true”, but unfortunately for him, Yui Mei didn’t have any obligation to shower him with such ‘kindness’.

As a former nurse in her previous life, she knew that she could’ve used the right words and attitude to handle a wounded heart such as Ming’s; unfortunately for him, Yui Mei was still irked that he had treated her as a ghost all this time.

“Lassie, what a confusing chap you are.
I don’t know if you’re trying to lift Ming’s spirits up, or if you’re crushing him down.”

That was General Li’s impression.